Dear Courage,

I don’t know how to process these feelings. I don’t know what this means for me and my future. How will people react? Am I a freak? I’m scared. I feel like this is all new and it wasn’t supposed to be like this.

I was supposed to be like everyone else.

I don’t have anyone to talk to and I feel embarrassed speaking to my family and friends but I feel I need to let it out but what do I say and how do I say it?

I don’t know how different I really am or how to feel about it. Is it weird that I don’t know how to react?

I just want to feel normal. I don’t want to feel like I am losing control but I feel like I might be.

Please help me Courage.


Fear xx

Dear Fear,

Thanks for writing.

First, it’s going to be ok.

I know it doesn’t seem like it right now perhaps but hang in there. Don’t let your head run away with itself. don’t let yourself think too far ahead and worry about something that you really have no need to right now. The future will come and we can think about that then.

It does feel a bit scary and it will for a while but you have to take this step by step to make it easier to process, easier to manage. It doesn’t all have to happen at once.

Never be scared or embarrassed to ask for help. It doesn’t make you weak, it actually makes you strong as you are acknowledging how you feel and that you need support.

Don’t forget that it will get better but it starts with you. You can make this happen. You do know how, it’s inside you, just take a breath. Relax and think clearly. You are going to have to be a little patient with this, there is no quick fix.

But in many ways you don’t want to be like everyone else, that’s boring. You want to be you, and YOU are unique. There is no ‘normal’ there is just our own expectations. You have so much you can achieve don’t let this limit you, it doesn’t need to.

We didn’t know this was going to happen but do you know what? we are going to find a way through those ups and downs together.

Stay strong, I am always here

Courage xx