At the age of 17 when I was diagnosed with MRKH I was completely devastated as my world around me collapsed.ย
Ever since I can remember I have suffered with anxiety, and being diagnosed with MRKH added to my anxiety and eventually it sent me into a spiral of mixed emotions and finally resultedย me having severe depression for a short period.
I felt alone, scared what my future wouldย hold, would I find love and find someone whom would except me and my MRKH condition?? The uncertainty swamped and consumed my emotions/ well being.ย
Every day I woke up and felt the same emotionsโฆโฆย
โ I canโt have children, I canโt have children!!!โ I felt sick with sadness and despair. I turned my back on God and my faith. I felt punished and could not understand why me? Why had God chosen this journey for me? I had just completed my first year at college,ย training to become an Early years Practitioner.ย
From the age of 14 I had always wanted to work with children, and wished for a large familyโฆโฆ now suddenly it felt like that my dreams had been taken away from me!ย
I was angry with God, and it stayed with me along with the resentment for many years, itโs why I probably suffered with a breakdown and mentally shutdown.
Gradually after seeking professional help over a course of many yearsย I began to slowly except my condition and that I would not have my own children.ย
I learnt for me that โit wasnโt the end of the world!โ I could live a happy for filling future without becoming a โmumโ.
I have always worked with children , and for many yearsย ย I believed children made me who I was, without them in my life I wasnโt truly me/ happy. I even called myselfย “Mary Poppins”.
To help and support my mental health and well-being, I meditate regularly, journal, read, practice yoga and get out in nature as much as I can. These activities have definitely helpedย and contributed to a healthy and happier me!
Fast forward to the present day, I can fully say hand on heart that Iโm at peace with MRKHโฆโฆ. I learnt to forgive God and realised he had a plan for me. Iโm where I am today because what Iโve endured.ย
Iโve had to suffer the worse days of my life to conquer, be grateful and feel blessed having the best days of my life!ย
My MRKH community have without a doubt been the main supportย where my healing/ acceptance has formed from.ย
My well being/mental health living with MRKH is now the best it has ever been and even though itโs been a roller coaster journey, I wouldnโt want my life any other way.ย
I was born a MRKH warrior, itโs made me a stronger , more resilient, courageous, and confident woman than I ever imagined.ย
I was lucky enough to meet my soul mate at the age of 19yrs, and we have been happily married for nearly 20 yrs.ย
If someone asked me if I had a choice to be born with/ without a uterus, I would not hesitate and replyโฆโฆ โIโd be born without a uterusโ why?ย
Because without my MRKH community I wouldnโt have the pleasure of knowing so many amazing, strong, supportive, and compassionate women that Iโm proud to call my family.ย
Iโm unique,ย
Iโm proud,ย
Iโm a warrior,ย
Iโm 1 in 5,000!!!ย ย
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